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I have two boys aged 9 and 6. I find them to be so so naughty that I cannot do anything to handle them. They are behaved for others but when with me they are such terrors. They do have a beautiful side of them, such as such kind hearts and so much love for me and for each other. But their naughtyness masks all that up that lately I can’t see past their constant bad behaviour. Everything i ask of them is a constant fight. Everyone says to me “Oh it’s ok they are just kids, all kids are like that”, and I understand that they very well might be, but I cannot take anymore of it. I’ve been diagnosed with PND after the birth of my second son, that has remained with me in the form of depression and anxiety, and the past few months, their behaviour has made me have suicidal thoughts, which scares me to bits. I know if I acted on anything, it would shatter their world. It’s like they are the only ones keeping me here but they are also the ones making me feel like I can’t take it anymore. I’m seeing a new psychologist this week to address it as I’m so scared. I guess I’m just after some encouragement or something to reassure me that everything will be ok.
Posted anonymously, 2nd September 2020