I’ve been really lucky. I have not had a close relative die since I was four. I’ve been to my fair share of funerals and dealt with loss but not like this. My Nan, whom I am very close to has just discovered she has a massive aggressive tumor in her abdomen. She is not frightened of dying, just of being in pain. The doctors are doing what they can to make her comfortable, but because of her age and health they can’t/won’t operate. I’m terrified. Not only because I am going to miss her immensely, our weekly lunches together and her quirky sense of humor. I’m terrified of watching my family, my Dad and Mum especially, suffer the grief of loosing her. I am running on auto pilot. I keep catching myself crying and have to remind myself that it’s Christmas time, my kids need me. My husband had to wake me up the other night because I was sobbing in my sleep. I dont know how to cope. Any advice?
Posted by maximoo, 30th December 2013