I met him when I was 13, we were together until I was 17. I lost my virginity to him, we were together for 4 years, living together for almost the whole time. We were engaged and I stupidly fell into the group that were trying drugs and I messed things up and left him. We lost contact when I was 18. He ended up with my cousin (through marriage, her and I only met once before this) and she stopped him from talking to me.
He came back into my life as a friend 2 years ago, nine years after we originally lost contact. But my feelings have always remained the same since we broke up. I’ve loved him every single day. The minute I saw him again, I just broke. I knew he was the one that got away.
His getting married in 15 days and it’s killing me. I know he has moved on and I’m happy he is happy but it just breaks my heart that he is not with me. I’ve tried everything to move on, I’ve been with others, stayed on my own. Gotten rid of everything he gave me. We weren’t in contact for years yet I STILL feel so deeply for him and think about him every day.
How do I move on when i’ve tried everything
Posted by christie_miller, 8th July 2014