A few years ago i got divorced. I was living on my own for the first time in my life (with my daughter) and was working, earning my own money. I had alot of friends i’d see every few days. I was happy. I met my partner and we fell pregnant very quickly and my daughter and i moved to his town (partially for him but also to get away from my ex), but since then i’ve been feeling very depressed and very down. Like i lost my identity when our second child was born and 2 years later i’m struggling to get it back.
I dont know how to get me back again when i have my toddler with me all the time. He’s got a injured back and in order for him to keep working he can’t do alot at home, which i’m ok with but it means i dont get any real me time.
I love my children, my house and my partner. I love the area we live in, but i feel trapped. Some days i cant breathe. I am on medication and seeing a counsellor but it isn’t changing how i feel.
I’ve lost alot of friends when i moved and have some new ones but it isn’t the same. They are more acquaintances then real friends.
Because of how i feel i am really struggling in social situations. I get anxious and panic. Which makes me feel even worse. I have always had some form of depression and anxiety but never this bad.
Posted anonymously, 12th February 2018