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Yesterday, I decided I needed to pull myself out of the general slump that I had fallen into the last few weeks. Why did I have a shitty few weeks, well my precious ones it’s called LIFE !! The holiday we had dreamed of, didn’t quite pan out into the picture I had envisaged, a super storm hit home and as normal we have had a bit of family stuff going on. Then to top it off, a life long friend suddenly passed away, (which I found out about on my birthday) and I personally was riddled, with all kinds of emotions that I referred to in my last blog.

All in all – I got hit by the ‘shit stick’ for a few weeks, and again I reiterate, its called LIFE. I’m not feeling sorry for myself, this week – I did that last week and we are all entitled to have a bit of self pity, remember precious it’s called LIFE !!!

However, after feeling the actual physical effects of all this sadness. My back went out again, appetite decreased, tumors in my bones started aching, fatigue set in and I was just generally feeling like someone who was sick !! I also felt the effects emotionally. I became seriously just SOOOO SAD, discouraged and sombre, then throw in the old menopause here too. You can imagine, from the collective impact of all of the above, I just lost my motivation to keep looking after myself and doing what was good for me. After having lived like this for the last few weeks I have decided ‘it sucks feeling miserable’ !!! And I could actually see myself slipping down the path of illness quickly.

So I have now realised that it’s time to pack that sadness away into it’s box. I have seen these sign and symptom quite often in my journey and I know and personally believe, that ‘it is one thing I DO HAVE CONTROL OFF’ !! It’s time to own all those feelings and emotions, acknowledge them and then put them away !

It doesn’t mean I forget it, it simply means I don’t punish myself with the pain of it and subsequently affect my wellbeing or that of those around me with all the sadness.

I can hear you say “Cracker Love !! But How ????? Well apart from the healing codes that I told you about in “Sheldon Move Over The Quantum Physic Queen Is Here” I also use my #magicmoments trick !!

Ya What ???? Using #magicmoments is a bit like the key, to opening the box of smiles for me !!

Basically I try to find one magic moment within the first 5 minutes of the day – the first 5 seconds would be even better but sometimes I don’t remember until I get into the bathroom and I have it scribbled across my bathroom mirror in big bright fluro yellow chalk pen !!! ” FIND IT ”

Yup that reminds me to look for one thing magical. it could simply be ‘my back feels a bit better today”. or “I actually slept last night” or “I’m having coffee with a dear friend today” or the wag of the dogs tail !! It doesn’t matter what it is !!! Find one thing to feel good about and think about that #magicmoment for 1 minute. Really what have you got to lose ? You could be brushing your teeth whilst you are doing it.

The only rule is, that you are NOT NOT NOT allowed to let jibber pop up on your shoulder and start tearing it all apart by throwing in the negatives !! You have to hold the happiness for just 1 minute …… Then stop and notice how it makes you feel inside… really think about it for at least another 1 minute and how the #magicmoment affected you physically.

Most of you will discover, that not only do you get a comforting feeling within your gut but that you also start to have a small smile on your dial followed by a small lift in your mood…

Those are the #magicmoments and you do have control over them. Now if you are like me some days I need more #magicmoments than others and need to do this a bit more often. Yet in my mad life of running around after 4 daughters I spend A LOT of time in the car and I use that time to practice my #magicmoments. I use to have a little Om card stuck in the dash board to remind myself – but now days I just tend to start doing it automatically when I am playing chauffeur to the squabbling troops. Maybe because it allows me to zone out from the arguments over who stole whose BB Cream !!!

Yet sometimes they hit you out of no where. Today I had a behttp://www.lifetimecollectibles.com/files/621402/uploaded/Ballarina%20White%20Jewelry%20Box%20Musical%20Inside.jpgautiful little #magicmoment as I was running into the shops quickly, before heading off to see my parents. I was standing on the escalator and heard this twinkling music behind me that was so familiar. A warm fuzzy feeling grew within me, from just hearing this ohh so familiar tune, that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. I had to turn around to put the 2+2 together to remember what it was, as it was just such a comforting sound.

There sitting in a stroller was a gorgeous little girl with her #magicmoment in her hands. A small ,pink, wooden music box with a little plastic ballerina going around and around and around. The little girls eyes where glued to the frilly tutu and the reflection of the ballerina in the small mirror, whilst her hands held the music box like it was the most treasured possession in the world. Her smile was so content and she was lost in that music box and the magic of that moment.

It honestly bought a tear to my eye at the simplicity and joy that a cheap little box could bring and the innocence of youth, whilst also giving me a #magicmoment that I could work with for the next 2 minutes.

x a

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Posted by mom118138, 13th May 2015