I am not happy. I don’t know what to do, where to go, who I need to help me find happy again. I don’t like my life, my kids don’t like their dad, I don’t like him most of the time. He’s not a bad person, I’m not even sure why I don’t like him anymore. I’m forever stuck in the middle, my kids complain to me about their dad, he complains to me about them. I keep it all inside so as not to stir things up, which I’m sure would happen if they all knew what the other was saying about the other. I’m so lost. I can’t even think of anywhere I want to be that would make me happy. I’m starting to feel like I just don’t want to be ‘here’ anymore. It seems whatever I choose, either my partner or the kids aren’t happy about it. I’m just lost. I don’t even know what or how to say things to convey how I’m feeling, no words. PS counselling is not for me, been there done that.