Where to now... - Real Mum story on MoM

Ok.. So this past year has been insanely hard. I’ve had a major breakup.. Seriously ill kids… And a miscarriage.

I think the worst was the former… I was 24 weeks when I lost my angel. I still miss her everyday. And even though every one says it gets easier over time, it really hasn’t. I still cannot hear her name (Charlotte Paige) with out crying. I’ve struggled with everything since then. Nothing seems the same.. And its horrible and I can feel every one around me suffering because I just can’t move on. I get so angry when people say that they “understand” what I’m feeling.. Yet how could they? None of them have gone through the same thing that I have. Its been 6 months since I lost her. But I still dream about her every night. My partner (We got back together) cant talk to me about it.. He shuts down at the mention at her name. My other 3 kids don’t fully understand. I feel like I’ve seperated myself from everything and everyone.. I find no enjoyment in things any more.. And now I’m starting to have pregnancy symptoms again. I just want to know if I’m the only one that has ever felt this or done this? If they have any advice. If they will share their stories with other so that they don’t feel alone. To help each other get through every day. No matter how hard it gets. To try and help each other find the answers and comfort that we all need sometimes. I am finally ready to talk about all this and I want to do it to the world.

Posted by kimbignell, 15th August 2013

5 Comments

- - mom113055 said
  - 28 Apr 2015
    2:36 pm
reading these stories are great

- - chelseak said
  - 16 Aug 2013
    9:10 am
Maybe try joining some of the support groups on Facebook? You’re not alone and you don’t have to go through it alone! Hugs to you

- - arcticwynta said
  - 15 Aug 2013
    11:33 pm
I my self have lost 11 babies the 2 furtherest was a few days of 6 months and one of twins she turned 29 today without her brother and the last one was at 4 and a half months I am now 46 and gave birth to my daughter at the age of 17. Also my daughters first child was full term perfect stillborn whom only passed within 24 hrs of his birth and she lost our Grandaughter only in December and hers have to be IVF. They have a garden at there house for Cody and one for Sienna with roses of the colour of their birth stones and special solar lights. I still remember every one of my angels I lost and still at times have a weep it takes a long time to get easier but you will never forget them and hold them close in your heart mine has 13 angel babies in it and all full of love for them. My thoughts are with you
- mom57522 replied
  
  06 Jan 2015 , 8:02 pm
  I’m so sad to read about all those who you have lost.
- - kymichelle said
  - 15 Aug 2013
    5:54 pm
I’m really sorry to hear that. It’s a really good first step telling us here, and I hope there are others who can help you. Talk to someone too – a friend, Doctor or even a helpline where you can just say what’s on your mind. Take care.