i’m depressed

I have depressionand anxiety.
I have poor body image.
I am worried that i have fertility problems.
and all of this has added up to me self harming again. Not in a visible way, I dont do anything that could leave a mark or be obvious. But i am making myself sick. After i eat at night i go to the toilet and stick my fingers down my throat until i have thrown up most of my dinner if not all of it.
I know it is bad for me, I understand the physiological harm I am causing myself.
I know i should confide in my partner about it and how i am feeling but i am afraid to dispoint him.

I hope that you have seen a dr and have some support and medication. It’s hard to ask for help, but we put so much effort into hiding Mental Health Issues and covering up that it just makes it worse. I hope you are ok.

If you don’t want to speak to your husband then you need to go and see a Dr but telling hubby would be wise so he can support and look at for you as you go through this.

i like reading these stories

Many big hugs. I have been in your position. I know it’s hard but go and seek help. Confide in your partner. Once you do you will wonder why you didn’t do it in the first place. Best wishes.

My dear, you really need someone to hold your hand, someone to talk to. If you want to keep it quiet for now, go and visit your doctor, get a referral to a psychologist, not a psychiatrist, but a psychologist.

I suffer severe chronic pain, I had thought of suicide at times in the past but now I have a group on facebook where we all get together, or you can send me private messages and I can be your friend, someone who will listen. I have helped many self-harmers, and suicidal people.
If you would like a friend, a sounding board, please email me at m.d.lindsay@bigpond.com. I would be quite happy to be your new friend and start bringing some happiness into your life. xxx lots of hugs Dee xxx

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  • • stepmom107932 replied
    • 31 Dec 2014 , 10:16 pm

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  What is your Facebook group called?

The thing that would disappoint him the most I’m assuming is not gettin the help you need to feel good about yourself.

stop it look after yourself you are strong we all go threw hard times im a single mum of 3 boys and its heart breaking but I will get threw this and be strong

I think your partner will be more disappointed if you don’t ask for help. Please do.

Don’t be afraid to disappoint him. You obviously want a baby together, so this is a shared journey and when people are in things together you have to take the good and bad. I would discuss what’s happening with him and then seek help- firstly by arranging an appointment with a sympathetic GP and make sure you outline all of your health issues, both physical and phycogical and then ask them for a referral to the appropriate organisation or person i.e psychologist, counsellor etc. There really is no shame in it. The shame would be not to allow people in to help.

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  • • mom93821 replied
    • 23 Dec 2014 , 1:12 pm

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  I agree with HOPEFULLYHEIDI’s excellent advice. Good Luck!