The moment I pressed send I knew there was no turning back. Steve’s experiences, my story, will be out there for the public to read. They are anyway, there’s 6 blogs written and publicly displayed. This is different, the questions have been answered and I’ve named names and places. I won’t run any more and nor will I hide, I hope more parents feel as though they can come out and feel “ok” by doing so.

What did I do? I made a heart felt contribution to the Australian Human Rights Commission when they called for submissions to contribute to their report and research into – Intentional Self Harm and Suicidal Behaviour in Children.

While you’re staring at the blood drip still silently making its way down the underside of the bathroom sink, the last thing you ever think you’ll be doing is offering that moment of time to an organisation such as the Australian Human Rights Commission.
When you’re looking at your son as he threatens “I’ll just go cut myself” you’re not pressing the record button inside you’re head so that moment is there to be recalled later. In fact, all I wanted to do, at the time, was erase that moment and all the others.

There’s no running from it, yet so many parents, carers, families do exactly that. Shelving the tragedy that suicidal tendencies of their young people and or the implications of the permanent damage self harming does to not just their lives but the lives of those around them that love them unconditionally.

The truth is, for your own sake, your own mental health and those around you, you can’t run nor can you hide. Finding the “right” people, the “right” person, to help you get through that time is what it takes to maintain some sort of composure. Or is it? I think my healing has only just begun, I’ll know I’ve healed when my eyes stop tearing up when I share my stories.

Not one person that I spoke to, from any organisation or facility, during “that time” could offer the empathy I really needed and was looking for. No specialist, friend, doctor etc had been the carer of a young person who was suffering at the hands of mental illness, in particular self-harm. I did have some people say they had self-harmed when younger though, however that wasn’t what I needed to help me to help myself. I wasn’t the self-harmer, I was #JustAMum walking alone amidst the dark side of parenting.

Please listen, please hear what I’m saying, I may have survived the darkness but there are other parents and carers out there who are experiencing similar and they need to know it’s ok to speak out about how their feeling and to feel safe doing so and that there’s one mum willing to be that person they need to connect with to simply feel really understood and listened to. “Empowered Parenting Now” on Facebook, both the page and group, is where you can find me. I’m #JustAMum working with a professional facilitator who’s offered her own time to help get things started. I was fortunate that when I sent out emails to 5 of Australia’s key organisations, one person “read” my message and the staff listened with joy that there was one parent prepared to step up and step out in the community for the future wellness of other parents and carers within all communities.

A side note or more because I really want to recognise someone… If there are Angels on earth then this person is one. He was one person who did everything he possible could via our sibling type friendship and work relationship, more than any other person, during that time and he’s still yet to have children. His ears listened to the horror stories and the frustration, his eyes saw the buckets of tears and some of the injuries, his belief in me as a person, as a mother, saw him PUSH me through the torment with many long walks around Milton along the river and encouragement to get on the treadmill at home and run / walk it out even more. He never judged, he never criticised, never condemned either myself or Steve. If he ever reads this he’ll know. We don’t talk much any more, however he called the other day and said he’d read my blogs and was impressed that I was stepping up and stepping out. Thanks for the validation and your relentless pushing and support A, it means more than you know.

Posted by MsJane, 31st May 2014

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  • great story to read


  • I’m really very overwhelmed by your support and I thank you from the very core of my heart and being. The light and the dark I have shared at the below link, there’s more to share obviously. I’d love your help through your sharing and your talking of what I’m trying to do. I don’t mind who you tell, who you share with, you might just bring light to the darkness of a friend that you never knew was there.

    http://www.friendsonfeet.com.au/blogs – for more stories



  • It would be a parents worst nightmare to go through what you have been through. I am happy that you have found a special person to support you but it can be terribly difficult and lonely for the parents as you have described.


  • You are an amazing mother and person for reliving the dark times to help others in life! well done and continue to be the strong, caring person you are!


  • you are a pair of parents that really fight for your children and their mental health. i had a friend and her daughter was a cutter self harming all the time and she would just check the house for any thing she thought she could use I did give her the advice that I thought it would be a good idea for her and her daughter to get help and some one professional to talk to to help understand why it was happening but she didn’t want any one to know until came the time it was very deep and hospital was needed and than they noticed the other scars and this was the best thing that happened as they both were given some one to talk to to help them to under stand what was so hard to understand and after a while a few years of the help she stopped self harming thank god but you see alot of kids theses days walking around with scars on their arms or legs any where but you do see some so it happens alot but it is not something people are bringing to light and need to stop hiding it as it does not mean your child is anything but a child who needs some special help and understanding and so does their loved ones who ride the waves with them.


  • You are extremely brave to face these things and then have the mental tenacity to turn that into a positive to help other people. That is true strength of character and a wonderful display of the power of kindness in human nature. Good on you. I think what you’re doing is great.


  • While there is still so much shame attached to suicide and depression, it will continue to be swept under the rug in many ways. The more that brave and articulate people like yourself talk about issues, the more it will ever so slowly be seen as an illness and not a lifestyle choice. Thank you for sharing your story.


  • Thank you for your bravery in speaking out and your contribution to research! My father just finished his master of suicidology and i helped him alot throughout his assessments, what i learnt was that suicide is such a multifaceted phenomenon we are only really scraping the surface of understanding it- the more research and the more people who can talk about it the greater chance we have of helping those who face or are bereaved by suicide.


  • These are issues that need to be bought out into the open. Well done for taking on the challenge.


  • Thank you for sharing and I agree many people don’t and will never talk about self harm or suicide but I’m sure we would all be surprised by the amount of people it affects.


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