wanting a baby my whole life - Real Mum story on MoM

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3 year ago me and my partner had a pregnancy scared (the condom broke). waiting for my period to come, i as freaking out as i though we were to younger we just got together a month ago, he also had a daughter from his last relationship. but by the time my period come i was really wanting to be pregnant and so did my partner, but sadly i wasn’t so we though we would start trying. 3 months after i fell pregnant was over the moon but sadly 9 weeks later i found out i had lost the baby at 8 weeks. i was heart broken it hurt so bad to loose something you never got to hold or see.

after another 3 months i fell pregnant again so happy but really scared this time ill loose it, at 7 weeks i did loose it and become really depressed and went to the doctors were he sent of tests.
The tests came back and to my horror it was my body that was making me miscarry. i got told i have a trans location chromosome were 2 ( 8 and 21) and trades parts and that i have a high chance of miscarry every time i get pregnant.

after another 3 months i got pregnant again 3rd time lucky ( i hoped)
i got really happy when i got to 11 weeks were i had to go in for a needle in my tummy to check the baby chromosomes, i was so happy i though that this was it, i was gonna have this baby but sadly i got a call a week later saying that the baby wasn’t gonna make it and to come in for a d&c i was heartbroken once again going in to that op and coming out of it was the hardest part they told me that the baby had died 2 days ago before the op.
feeling really depressed by now i though ill try again , and i had my 4th pregnancy this time i only made it to 5 weeks .. i stop trying for a year because i started getting really depressed and wasn’t doing me any good.

ive started trying again the start of the month and i have not yet gotten pregnant im so worried im not gonna be able to and it scares me so much i cant afford an IVF so i have to go though the pain and loss of loosing baby’s..

im lucky to have my step daughter now tho so fingers cross that this year i can make her a big sister.

Posted by liana shattell, 25th March 2014

13 Comments

- - rebekah.bone said
  - 03 Jul 2015
    1:32 am
Liana, I’m so sorry for the loss and pain you have gone through!
How has everything been going this year?
Fingers crossed for you!

- - arcticwynta said
  - 09 May 2014
    7:44 pm
stay strong and try not to put to much pressure on your self about falling pregnant. You and your partner can both get checked to see if there is any reason and it could be as simple as a tablet. I know how you feel I have lost 11 babies my longest was at 6 months and he was one of twins and his Sister is my Oldest child I was lucky they were not identical . The others I would hit 4 1/2 months and loose them. So don’t think there will never be that day that you leave a hospital with a little bundle of joy but as I said get both of you medically checked out to rule that out

- - mummy liana said
  - 22 Apr 2014
    11:39 pm
so i have now had 5 miscarriages… i found out i was pregnant at 4 week but 2 days later i lost it.. its getting pretty stressful so im thinking about saving lots for an IVF… anyone know a way to get a cheaper one?

- - kellyewinsor said
  - 22 Apr 2014
    1:11 pm
So sorry to hear your story and really do have my fingers crossed that you get some luck soon and you get to hold your very own little baby xx

- - alex_nisbet said
  - 10 Apr 2014
    9:32 pm
im so sorry to hear this, i cant even imagine how heart breaking it would be to loose so many babies. i really feel for you and wish you luck this year, you are so strong to try again xx

- - fatheroffaprincess said
  - 31 Mar 2014
    8:20 pm
my partner has this its really hard on her

- - jodie80 said
  - 31 Mar 2014
    5:09 pm
my friend had this similar problem . they had a baby girl in the end

- - mummy liana said
  - 29 Mar 2014
    2:19 am
needle hurts a little but they do numb the area first you mainly feel pulling in your stomach .

- - thejodsta said
  - 28 Mar 2014
    11:47 pm
Good luck, sending you positive vibes.

- - esikeen said
  - 28 Mar 2014
    1:13 pm
Positive thoughts, try your best not to stress. Just take it as it comes..

- - cinta said
  - 28 Mar 2014
    12:55 pm
I Wish You All The Best Xx

- - jodie80 said
  - 26 Mar 2014
    8:28 pm
how much does that needle hiurt

- - yyon4699 said
  - 26 Mar 2014
    10:59 am
yes ! all the very best to u