Today I got told that I am a glutton for punishment. I may be about to have my fourth child close to each other while I am young but the implications about that being a punishment has bugged me all day. I just wanted to get it out of my head so that it’s known that these children I am raising are in no way a punishment, they are an amazing gift that I honestly don’t feel I am good enough for sometimes. These little humans are so special and precious that my heart melts for them every day. In no way is it easy but they are great kids and they are 100% worth all the effort.
Sometimes I end the day exhausted and glad to curl up in bed but other days I don’t want to put the kids to bed because we are having too much fun. Getting outside with them and kicking the ball around or drawing with chalk is so rewarding. To know that the energy I put into cooking and cleaning up after them is doing the best I can for them growing up makes me a happy mum.
When the kids sit on their own and count or they do things on their own for the first time I am so overwhelmed with pride that I taught them that. I just don’t see how any of these result as a punishment, and I am going through these things over and over again because they are so close.
I don’t always see the best side of things but I am learning to count my blessings every day. And these kids are the best thing that has ever happened to me, I feel lost on those days that I have to spend away from them and that alone proves to me enough that I am not a glutton for punishment.
Posted by momof4:), 17th September 2015