It’s 9yrs since your post. How have you been coping ?

We all have our own way of grieving. And you sobbing in your dreams, writing this post, looking to the sweet moments you have shared with your nan, show that you are finding your way through this.

You just have to roll with it. No one can predict how you will cope or what you will need to do to get through it. It’s a learning experience

It sounds as though you have already started your grieving process. How sad for you all. Being so long since you lost a loved one, it will be tough on you. I hope you made it through ok

It really is great reading the comments!

I don’t think there is any one single way to deal with everyone’s grief. Everybody is different and copes with grief in different ways. You could maybe seek professional help, they may help you find a way through

after my nan died i kept wanting to call her for ages afterwards, it takes time to feel better

I hope you got through this traumatic experience without too much grief

Sorry to hear that hun. It is extremely hard to deal with someone close passing away. I too dread the day it happens. I guess as they say – One day at a time

I’m so sorry for you and your family. Just know that it is OK to cry! You need to let yourself have a good cry to release some of those emotions. If all else fails, speak to your gp about your emotional health.

my thoughts are with you and your family

You really need to talk to a grief counselor. Talk to your GP for a referral. They can give you tools to help with this impeding loss. You will still grieve but you can control the times of it if you know how.

I hope you are surrounded with plenty of shoulders to lean on.

My thoughts are with you and hope some of the advice below has helped.

Its part of life unfortunately, eventhough its terrible way to be in pain. Just know she had a good life, and loving people around her.

Hard, be supportive of your family, especially your nan, by you being there for her willl help her immensely.

It is normal to grieve and in the case of sickness a lot of the grieving is done before the person actually passes away. I would see your doctor and talk to him or her for some extra support. Maybe some anti depressants will help you get through this period. It is ok to be sad, but you sound like you may need that extra help.

I wrote lots of letters to my Nan when she was in hospital and a nursing home. I look them to her and read them to her. I reminded her of the fun times we had at her houses over the years with our cousins and how she always had lollies in her apron pocket. She laughed and cried with me and when she passed I got all the letters back. I think this help me cope. I hope this idea may help you cope too.

Its OK to cry when you are sad, just explain to your children you are feeling sad and need a hug, there is no preparation for someone close dying my Aunt just took 6 months to die, each day we thought that was it and somehow she survived, but finally it was her time. You can be sad but still fun for your children , take one day at a time and hang on to the good times, I just got a small inheritance from my Aunt and took great pleasure in spending it as I knew that is what she would have wanted me to do.

This is so sad, I don’t know what to say but agree with people on here to keep talking about out and enjoy her and you’re lunches whilst you can