Admitting I was struggling was the hardest part.

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I don’t like to broadcast my problems, I keep a lot to myself. Opening up about my feelings to my husband has never been an easy thing.

When my first daughter was born I was on top of the world, I never got the 3 day blues and was quite proud of myself with how I was handling being a mum. I had no family support from my side of the family and honestly my inlaws were far from helpful.

When I was pregnant with my second daughter, my moods were all over the place which I put down to hormones. After she was born I struggled with two children, after a few months I got a great routine going and again thought my wild emotions in her first months of life were hormones. Then I got pregnant again when my second was 6 months old.

My third pregnancy was hard, my emotions were all over the place, I was crying over nothing really, again I thought hormones. Once my son was born I thought the moods would subside once my hormones balanced them selves out and breastfeeding was established properly. I was ever so wrong.

The first 6 weeks of my sons life I felt like a failure, I was struggling to handle all 3 kids on my own and thought in time a routine would come into play. I felt my husband was a waste of space and wasn’t helping me at all. I had thoughts that no mother should ever think.

At my sons 6 week check I tried to have a brave face, to act like nothing was wrong and everything was perfect in my little family, the nurse saw straight through it and I broke down. I wasn’t ok, my family life was far from perfect.

Thanks to this beautiful health nurse and her knowledge of postnatal depression she picked up on the signs and pushed me to get help. My son is now 14 weeks old and although I’m far from ‘cured’ so to speak, I have now become aware of my illness.

Postnatal depression is horrible! I never thought I would get it, but I did. It took 2 pregnancies to finally admit there is something wrong. Postnatal depression won’t go away on its own. Please get help if you feel something isn’t right. I far from being well but I’m on my way and taking one day at a time!

Posted by mykah225, 3rd September 2013

6 Comments

- - shelley shelley said
  - 22 May 2015
    11:00 am
Aw u made me cry. I went thru very similar circumstances and to hear your story gives me hope yet! I’m so proud of you and how far you have come/ achieved!!!!

- - mom57522 said
  - 07 Jan 2015
    1:25 pm
Good on you for speaking out and sharing your experience for others who may be going through the same thing.

- - yyon4699 said
  - 31 Mar 2014
    4:07 pm
i totally understand… stay strong. you are definitely not alone

- - omgjag31 said
  - 10 Sep 2013
    10:26 am
You are not alone. I was 20 when I had my 1st and like you on top of the world. 13 long years later I had my 2nd. I didn’t handle this at all. It was hard to admit but everyone could see I wasn’t myself

I was very lucky as I work I’m mental health and my work Mates realised and helpede through this time. Bub is now two and we are all doing well.

I wish you the best in life and motherhood

- - jocelynwong31 said
  - 04 Sep 2013
    12:25 am
I was there too, though with only 1 child. Took me 6 months to recognise and come to terms with it. Stay strong, get all the help you need and you can& will recover. Best wishes!

- - rukee said
  - 03 Sep 2013
    8:30 pm
I’m sorry to hear that, I wish you well on the road to recovery.