Depression and rasing children - Real Mum story on MoM

It all started when I had my son at 23 I had not realised that
I had postpartum depression with my daughter who I had at age19
Until I had my son and realised how bad I was and how different I felt with him
Then I did with her.
I returned to work when my son was 4 months old doing night shift cooking at a local pub
I’d work pretty late some nights while there dad was at home watching them
I wouldn’t get home until 10/11 some nights exhausted and overwhelmed
My love life was going down the drain we argued over little things that did not
Matter.
Long story short I got really bad where I wouldn’t get out of bed and if i did was to change a diaper or feed the children I would lay on the lounge all day and not do anything which would make me feel like a horrible mother these children don’t deserve this they deserve to go to the park or for a walk or go make some friends my partner came home took one look at me and said you need help and you need it now he booked me an appointment to see a dr who referred me to a therapist who then referred me to a phyciratist (can’t spell) who out me on antidepressants they worked for a little bit but in the end made me so much worse I had thoughts about harming myself ending my life nothing would change my mind I tried to over dose on my antidepressants but yet failed (thank God) I tried a few times I left my job etc I had My family worried I felt horrible so I got off my antidepressants and started noticing a huge difference after a week myself was coming back the me I remember the fun bubbly me a month down the track I’m still here I’m loving life my children everything.

Posted by mom460322, 5th March 2020