High Risk Pregnancy - Real Mum story on MoM

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I went from having a low risk pregnancy to a high risk pregnancy from my second to third trimester. I haven’t announced my pregnancy and now, with what I know I’m relieved there are no ultrasound images of my baby or pregnancy shots of me looking elated in a whimsical location like so many of my friends had when they were pregnant. I know now, I can’t announce my baby’s arrival until I know the baby is in the clear. My baby could be in hospital for weeks because of a condition that developed in the third trimester. I went from normal and happy to anxious and upset in a matter of days. I am now waiting for the baby’s delivery, then it’s a waiting game to ensure the baby is okay. It seems unfair that my baby will be given such a rough start in life because my body has failed me and ultimately the baby.

I feel sick thinking about it, yet, I don’t wish to place further strain on my body and put my baby at greater risk. The only thing I can do now is get rest and wait. Waiting seems the hardest part though, the doctors aren’t willing to perform an emergency c section unless further complications arise but I worry. What if more complications do arise and it’s too late. I now place my hand on my belly, feeling my baby kick away, I can feel the baby moving inside me and this keeps me sane. Every movement I feel is comforting, as I know for now the baby is okay, still struggling and better out of my body. But, for now okay.

I am anxiously waiting for the baby’s arrival, I want to feel excited again, like expecting mums. I want to let my friends know, I’m pregnant and I love my baby but I’m worried. If the baby doesn’t make it, what then do I say. I’m holding off on the announcement, waiting for this child. And, I think of the “ifs” what if the baby doesn’t make it? What do I tell everyone? Should I tell anyone apart from close friends? I try not to slip into further despair. The baby is still kicking, I just have to wait. Think positive and wait.

Posted anonymously, 24th May 2015

6 Comments

- - kat76 said
  - 08 Oct 2015
    1:16 am
Thinking of you. Love and prayers. I had my miracle at 27 weeks, 565grams. It was the hard but most rewarding journey. My little princess is 5 now. All the best for a positive future

- - christial said
  - 12 Jun 2015
    4:04 pm
You must be going through a very difficult time. Sometimes having someone to talk to will make you feel better.. Stress can’t be doing anything good for your body or your baby.. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!

- - mom57522 said
  - 07 Jun 2015
    10:38 am
What a horrible situation to be in. We are here for you.

- - mom94125 said
  - 01 Jun 2015
    5:22 pm
try to keep your head up! take it easy

- - mum4107 said
  - 25 May 2015
    5:38 am
What a tough time for you. I also agree with telling people so you have support either way. You will need it. I hope everything goes well for you. Please let us know how you go xx

- - BellaB said
  - 24 May 2015
    10:54 pm
I have been there. I think it’s better to tell people. You will need huge support either way, but especially if your baby dies. Good luck.