When I look in the mirror.
I see all these fantastic posts about mums loving there post baby bodies and to be honest I’m jealous. I’ve had 4 kids worked my butt off to move that baby weight and thought once I reach my goal weight would feel what they do but no I’ve been at my goal weight for almost a yr and I still cringe when I look in the mirror. I still see huge excess skin around my stomach that i hide with high waisted pants,my once perky nice dd breast have deflated to a saggy c cup and don’t even get me started on my bum and thighs I’m currently watching it jiggle all over the place while I do hiit training on the treadmill I’m kinda glad the sweat I’d burning my eyes so I can’t see properly.
This is my daily life. I workout for a bit (eg6mths) realize it’d not helping stop then do it again.ive done weight training, work out videos, followed diets everything and still nothing can unstretch my skin or reinfkate my breast apart from plastic surgery and let’s be truthful when you are raising kids who has that kind of money. I know my partner loves me for me but I don’t.
I want to be one if those women I see posting sharing their tiger stripes but every time I take the photo determined to put it up bit I look at it and cringe and i just cant share it.
I know I should be proud and I would never take back any of my kids I just struggle to come to terms with my new body.
I hope one day I can be like the other women but for now I’m just trying to accept me.
Posted anonymously, 4th January 2016