Almost 6 years ago I started studying at University. After 2 years, I decided I wasn’t doing the right course and so I changed. It has been going really good until recently, I am starting to wonder if I have done the right thing.
I have only 5 semesters left to study and then I graduate which I am looking so forward too, but I am also losing my motivation and concentration and will to study.
I really want to return to work, but I want to work in the industry that I have been studying so hard for, unfortunately I am not getting anywhere. My family say, it will be fine once you graduate. Employers say (when I have had interviews) that I have either too much experience or I have limited experience. Question is, how do I get that experience, if no one is willing to provide that opportunity? People say, go to university and you will get a great job! I know many people who have finished university and still cannot get work…what hope do I have.
All these negative thoughts and feelings are really deterring me from my studies and I just cannot seem to find that positivity and motivation to keep going. Sometimes I wonder should I just pack it in, look for something different or stay home with my kids. My youngest starts prep next year and so I will need something to occupy myself.
I know that the area I live in is not good on the job front…many people are being laid off everywhere, jobs are decreasing – 1 part time job I applied for had over 300 applications! My hubby and I know that once I have graduated, it means that we may have to relocate so that we can both get work. This scares me, I love where I live and don’t want to move too far away from my parents.
I am supposed to be studying right now, but instead I am here writing this story, hoping that maybe my inspiration will magically appear if I write all this down. Maybe the perfect job is out there waiting for me, and until it arrives, or my motivation returns I will take it one day at a time, do the best that I can and try to pass all my courses.
Posted by blondie, 13th April 2015