My daughter will be 4 on November 12th and I’ve recently noticed that I am extremely clucky. After our daughter was born we were completely against another baby. The birth was awful. 2 days, 2 failed inductions followed by a c section. The only thing I remember is it took 7 minutes for her to be “born”. And only because I was told. My poor husband was so stressed out by this stage he was physically ill for about a week. Poor bugger. After leaving the hospital, I did not cope at all and was soon diagnosed with depression. It was so bad I was sent to a psychiatrist. And I’ve spent the last almost 4 years on meds. Last year I got pregnant, completely unplanned. I was so stoked but unfortunately 3 days past my 12 week safety net I miscarried. And was utterly destroyed. People actually avoided me because they didn’t know what to say, that hurt, I won’t lie. By this stage we were definitely anti baby. But now a year has passed and I’ve been off my meds nearly for months, thanks to my PT, and I think I’m ready to begin again. Our daughter has been asking for a brother or sister for awhile now and as much as I would like to give her one, it is not solely up to me. My husband isn’t keen on the idea of another baby. I think he is against it actually, not that I blame him. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this. My only girlfriend with kids says “who cares what he thinks it’s your body”. Definitely out of the question.
I don’t know if I’m looking for advice and for others to weigh in with their thoughts or I’m just spilling. Advice and thoughts are always welcome. I do have to admit it does a soul good to let loose with pain.
Posted anonymously, 18th September 2014