I have never loved anyone the way I love this man we fought all odds and lost family and friends to be together, we fought for over 20 yrs to leave it be and couldn’t so finally we got together and had our beautiful baby boy. My problem is he and I both have children from our marriages to other people and no matter what hes children come first before everybody else even our baby, he left me while pregnant because I was to sick to deal with his kids and when I say left left for 3 wks got back together and the kids fought so he left again and again and again and again, had our baby he left again and again and again, while im sure he can not handle seeing me upset and angry is the reason he walks away. Ive taken him back so many time but this time it has been nearlt a month and he keeps blaming me for being anrgy and hating him and I keep saying I wonder why, I don’t hate him I love him so much but I feel that im being mental abused here, I do miss him at times and love him dearly but I keep thinking I cant keep taking him back because he will just do it again and yes im very angry and upset, this time I drove to his work with his clothes a threw them at him and told him to get the f out my life. He keeos texting me and wants to talk but im so hurt and so angry and un tears nearly everyday. he hasn’t seen our child for 3 wks and our baby is not even 2 and keeps asking for dadda. Im seeing a councillor and every time I talk about him im in tears. How do I get over the man I was always in love with how do I go forwards in my life when im so broken. Do I take him back again so he has the chance to hurt me more and blame me for being angry. He will never be out my life I realise this and he will never not want to see his son is it my angry that keeps making him walk out?
Posted by 191joannes, 12th August 2014