I have 5 beautiful children, 7 gorgeous grandchildren, even though 2 of those 5 children are my step-daughters, I still love them as if they are my own.
I have given birth to 1 girl and 2 boys and all these years, I was always looking forward to seeing my daughter walk down the aisle in a beautiful gown, with the love of her life.
Well, it didn’t work that way. A couple of years ago, our daughter announced that she was Gay. I asked if she was happy, she said yet, and hat was fine, all we want for our children is that they are happy.
She left her job, stopped calling, moved from one state to another, really stopped calling her nanna, her mum and she used to call me every day, and she seem to have changed. That was ok, because she was happy. Then she started putting on a great deal of weight, started wearing peaked caps, getting her beautiful blonde hair shaved on the sides, but that was ok, she was happy.
Then she started getting big tattoo’s. She had a couple of little ones, but it was huge, this new one was, and when she sent me a photo of her and her girlfriend I could hardly recognise my beautiful daughter. I had lost her, she said this was her and If I didn’t like it, too bad. She wouldn’t talk to me for ages.
We had been planning an overseas trip for around 18 months when she announced she was getting married to her girlfriend just before we were due to go away. This made it so difficult to afford to go to her ‘Wedding’ as it wasn’t legally a wedding, only a ‘confirmation ceremony’. I suggested she wait a bit longer as it won’t be long before it would be made legal in Australia to get married. Well, then I was the worst mother ever, I was abused, and told she didn’t want us there anyhow.
I was devastated, I asked for an apology as I didn’t deserve to be abused. She wouldn’t, said there was no need to.
Anyway, some of the family went but her brothers were not asked to be a part of the ‘wedding’, I was never asked to do anything to help, and I would have even though I lived quite a distance away. It would have cost us over $1500 to get there, as pensioners we had taken almost 2 years to save the money for our holiday to America that I won, but had to pay for flights. So the wedding was last weekend, I am hurting so much. I love my daughter so very much. I feel awful that we couldn’t be there. She said she understood, but It has hurt me so much.
I am confused, shed quite a few tears, we sent a lovely gift, which they loved. There was just no way possible that we could have gone, so now, what do I do…
I miss my daughter, and feel like I have another son. I definitely do not have any concerns that she is gay, it doesn’t come into it, she just seems to have lost her identity. PLEASE HELP!!!
Posted anonymously, 25th August 2015