Living with depression is like living a double life. When you finally venture outside you are constantly analyzing every move you make so that people don’t realise that you are anxious or just want to burst out crying. I hate going out with my kids because I always see other mums who seem to have it. I find motherhood a real struggle and since my daughter resembles my sister in law I feel that is a reason why we haven’t bonded as I can’t stand my sister in law. However I am slowly learning to love my daughter. She was diagnosed wih borderline depression and anxiety. How can they determine that for a two year old. Anyway she would never have eye contact with people and to be honest I hated being around her. Don’t get me wrong I love my daughter but I didn’t like her as much as I liked my son. I don’t know why and I guess therapy will help answer that question. However I’m slowly learning to love her and realise that she has got a wonderful personality. Just last week she has started singing and like me she has a bad tone to her voice but I love the fact that after three years she is happy enough to be able to sing. I’m not at the point that I can sing but we are slowly getting there. We are venturing out today so lets see how it goes.

Posted by pastosy, 27th November 2013

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  • I’m pretty sure a big part of the depression diagnosis for your daughter would be made from what you tell the gp. I would be very careful I could they prescribe medication. My sister in law had my 10 yo nephew on medication for mental issues at age 10. It was so sad to see. She’s a bit of a hypochondriac herself and I’m sure this filtered through to her son. He’s 30 now, still on medication, never had a job, never left home, never had a girlfriend. He sleeps all day and plays on game consoles all night. His mum still molly coddles him. I dread to think what will become of him when his mum passes


  • I hope you and your daughter are both getting the counselling and support you need. Your daughter could also have a mild form of a type of Autism. Does she look people in the eye now??


  • Slowly, slowly, you can do this.


  • I hope things are working out for you now a couple months later. The mothers on this website will always offer a helping hand and advice and positive support when u need it and want it :)


  • Depression is a disease unfortunately it can’t be seen and many suffer from it, me being one. Baby steps, one step at a time, seek help, surround yourself with positive & supportive people, good luck :)


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