I don’t know if I’m the only one out there, and I’m assuming that I’m not, but I feel like my family have never really understood the person that I truly am. It seems that no matter what I do I always seem to be a ‘bitch’ or selfish or a spoiled brat, which is really not the way I am at all. I am a person who has always given her all for her kids and I’m always trying to find things that we can all enjoy and to think of others, but no matter what we still keep coming back to the same sentiments with my parents and brother and their poison so often rubs off onto my husband.
My friend at work can see the way that I try to be and I’d love to actually be seen as a valuable person by my family, not someone to be merely tolerated. But I really don’t think that they will ever see me in any other way. It has always been like this since I was a young child and really couldn’t be accounted for or responsible for being ‘selfish’. Unfortunately, it has made me want to avoid my family. I don’t have a relationship with my own mother and I can’t really tell her anything personal- it’s really just all superficial.
I never want to be that way with my kids.
Posted by sars_angelchik, 11th November 2016