Until you begin to share this with others, you don’t realise just how many people in your world (friends, family, church family, work mates, etc), actually struggle with fertility issues. It’s so common that it’s just not right. The enemy sure knows which strings to pull. I have not ever experienced a miscarriage, so I can not speak with experience, however I do understand the years of failed conception. The heart ache that definitely does dig deeper on those special days (Mothers & Fathers Day), baby shower after baby shower…but not your own. It’s a grief unlike any other. I wasted so many years trying to battle in my own strength, I thought I’d given it to God, but I hadn’t given it ALL to Him. Until then, I lived in grief. But then, God intervened and while it was another 7 months after that before we conceived with medical assitance, I wasn’t going it alone anymore. I found so many people in my immediate circle who knew what I was going through. It made me press into God even more, because I just didn’t feel that it was right for so many of His kids to be dealing with this. Today we have a beautiful miracle, he is 20 months old now, and not only is he everything I wanted…he’s everything I NEEDED after spending 5+ years living in the grief of what I didn’t yet have. God hasn’t forgotten anyone. We may not understand the journey He takes us on…but His promises are ALWAYS fulfilled!
Posted by mum2nim, 30th June 2013