Have you made your GP aware of all of this? Do you see a Neurologist or other professional for check-ups for your stroke problems? If so you should be communicating with him/her. Some of this could be the side effects of medication you are taking and a change could make an amazing improvement.
Or are not taking medication that you were perscribed?

sounds like you are crying out for help – may I gently point you towards beyond blue 1300 224 636
they will listen to your heart felt cries for help and your frustration at being in the state you are in, and offer some guidance and help you get the more specialised help that will make you feel better. I have had strokes, and am only 48yo. We all have a story, and all need help at different stages of our lives… Many blessings and much positive energy being sent your way for a happy and wonderful recovery x

I am sorry you are feeling so much pain . Please ring Lifeline opened 24/7 urgently as it seems like you are suffering from a lot of past builtups as well and it has become unmanageable . There are a lot of supportive people and resources now than ever before to help you so you don’t feel so isolated . Please reach out and talk to the right people immediately , they are waiting on the phones now .

What a difficult situation for you. Have you got people you can talk to

Worrying about finances is really hard. Do you have someone that can help you plan your finances? It might help to talk to someone. And why not give Beyond Blue a call for some support? They are amazing. Good Luck, I hope you feel better soon.

How hard for you, it sounds like a never ending cycle.

I’m sorry to hear of your hard times. You’re very right that worrying doesn’t help, but it’s hard not to do. I hope you find some enjoyable things for you at the moment!

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