on April 27 2014 i woke up early as with every morning during my pregnancy and waddled to the toilet. i was pregnant with baby number 6 and even though the pregnancy was a shock and unplanned i had grown used to the idea and was rather in love with my unborn daughter who was due to be born on june 2nd, unfortunatel gestational diabetes meant she was going to be induced at 38 to 39 weeks. Upon finishing my toilet trip i lay back down on my bed to suddenly feel a headache come on, thick and fast, from my neck to my forehead like a vice was clamping down on me and the lights, omg it was suddenly so bright.
i woke my boyfriend up and begged him to get me to the hospital that something was wrong, after cat scans and a lumbar puncture i was told i had a brain bleed and was to be flown to brisbane which is 5 hours from my home. i still had no idea how bad this was going to be but i just know that i was terrifed. being pregnant meant they couldnt do mainstream tests so it made treating me alot harder. i asked that my 5 kids be brought to the hospital fast so that i could tell them all that i loved them and gave them all a quick talk about how special they are and how to be brave and look out for each other for me. I told my oldest where my life insurance policy was , i held them so so tight, was this going to be my last hug? i felt numb. The doctor said i was a brave woman, he didnt know that fear and shock had stolen my ability to do anything but mutely go along with whatever tests they issued and however many needles i was to have.
I distinctly remember telling my partner to make sure that if i died they could cut my baby out immediately and save her life.
my trip to brisbane was a scary , lonely one, my mother was still on holidays and couldnt return for at least 4 days, my partner was driving my kids to brisbane the next day so i had them near me. I was in intensive care for 4 days while they tested and observed me waiting to see if they needed to do an emergency c-section to deliver bub so they can race me to theatre. luckily for me an MRI showed very little in the way of something they would fear so i was allowed to come home after 6 days, i was then to return by the 10th of may to stay at the ronald mcdoanld house till i had delivered , i managed to get them to let me stay home till the 12th so i could spend mothers day with my kids. i help them all so tight every hug i got while i was at home.
i was still very wary and careful of my head and my stress incase i bled again as no tests were complete yet to give me the all clear, and i still got daily headaches. on the 15th of may i was induced and then given an early epidural to protect me from the effects of pain raising my blood pressure and putting my health at risk. unfortunately the mixture of drugs given caused horribly intense all over itching that lasted for hours, they almost had to strap me in to stop me scratching and thanks to my constant wriggling to scratch myself i had loosened the epidural tubing making it wear off down one half of my body , the pains were coming thick and fast and caused there to be a few extra people madly swanning around the labour room getting me back to pain free. after a 20 hour labour my daughter was born with a not allowed to push, forceps delivery. she was 8 pound 1 and in perfect health. She is 11 weeks old now, im still waiting to get more tests done to see if the bleed is fully resolved and so i am often fretful and nervous about the possibility of it happeneing aain, every headache terrifies me these days. i have to tell myself there will be nothing i can do if it does , so i am going to make sure i get every bit of love to and from my kiddies while i still can.
Posted by celtica189, 3rd August 2014