I am a mother of three aged 2,6 and 9 we live on a farm and my husband also manages another farm and he is never home till late and then when he is home he has all hiss working dogs to feed which takes hours.I do have some family around but we don’t see much of each other and if we do it is just dinner etc. I don’t really have a social life to speak of so I don’t get any outlet there either.
With my husbands job I really raise the children by myself and up until 3.5 years ago I used to work to jobs in town around my husband so that my children did not need to go to daycare, this was until I had a miscarrage and was told to slow down. Then when i fell pregnant with my third child I was told to give work up as I nearly lost him twice and ws told to take it easy and rest alot. Luckly I was able to start and work from home which is great for so many reasons and bad as I don’t get to see or speak to many people i miss the interaction.
I tell my husband that I feel like I am just a full time worker, house mum/wife, taxi which i know is normal as a mother although most people have a husband that helps with the kids and the house and the shopping etc not me. I have only been out without my children for a night out with friends three times in 9 years and the first time was only last year.
Without family or friends around to help me like so many other people, not very often but every now and then it really gets me down and i feel that i just need a break and then I feel guilty like i am a bad mum as the only times that I have left my children overnight is when I have been in hospital having another baby and when my daughter was hospitalised ofernight and when she had her toncils out.
Am I a nut job or is it ok to feel this way sometimes?
Posted by Lov'n'Life, 18th April 2013