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I was 18 when I meet the love of my life and my best friend.

3 wonderful years later we were married.

We both wanted to start a family straight.

Iit was heartbreaking after 3 years that I had not fallen pregnant.

So we made the appointment to visit our local doctor.

Who then sent us to our local hospital to get some test’s done.

waiting for the test results were painfully hard.

My ultimate dream was to have children and if I was unable to achieve this I would have been shattered…

The doctor called us in to his office to give us the news.

“There’s nothing wrong with either of you. Sometimes things just don’t work and we are unsure why.

I had mixed feeling about the result.

But I knew I want to start IVF as soon as possible.

So we did . I started taking hormone injections every morning to stimulate my hormones and make me release more eggs.

Then came my mini operation to take my eggs .

This was hard for me it was the start of my journey to motherhood but emotionally I was a wreck.

8 hours after my operation I was allowed to go home.

I felt horrible but knowing that this part of my IVF journey was behind me was great.

So I started looking towards the future.

The next day I went back in to hospital to have my egg put back into my womb.

This again was hard because you are awake while they are doing it. It takes app 10 minutes then your free to go.

I was on a high i’d done it I had an egg implanted and I was on my way to motherhood.

These were the best two weeks of my life thinking I was pregnant and was going to have a baby.

Then it happened I got my period.

I want to scream I wanted to throw something but mostly I was just really sad.

I felt like I had let down my hubby who I loved so much.

I knew his dream of becoming a father was just as strong as mine.

So telling him was horrible. He hugged me and told me not to worry things would happen when my body was ready.

I was angry at the doctors if there was honestly nothing wrong with me why does this happen..

So my journey restarted going through all the motions again. I felt like a robot. With my main aim in life to have children I just gave in and was in the hospital even morning for my injections once a month for my implant and every 6 weeks for a scan.

I continued this for 4 years .

Then came the talk of giving it a break and maybe having a holiday , forgetting about IVF and even stopping it all together.

I was devastated . I knew in my heart I had to stop not only had it cost us thousands of dollars.

I had forgotten who I was and I had forgotten how to be happy and have fun.

My husband booked us a long awaited holiday.

It felt good to get away but in my heart I wanted to be back at the hospital and trying again to make my dream a reality.

We had 2 weeks of bliss eating tea by the pool side massages and something I hadn’t done in 7 year relax.

After our beautiful 2 weeks were up we returned home.

I had felt horrible from the trip home. And had never felt motion sickness this bad before.

Monday came around and it was time to return to work.

Still feeling yuk i call work for a day off and headed to the doctor.

I was telling my doctor how sick I had felt and how it was getting worse and I couldn’t do anything to make it go away.

My doctor suggested we do a pregnancy test. I let her know that there was no way I was pregnant and to not bother with the test.

But she told me she had to so she could eliminate it as a possibility.

We were both shocked when it came back positive.

how could it be 7 years of trying and 4 years of that on IVF.

My doctor told me when your bodys ready it will happen.

My husband and I are now proud parents of two kids and we couldn’t be happier.

I write this to give hope for ladies on IVF. I know when I started I read ever book and blog I could to try to get a better understanding of what I was about to undergo.

IVF Is a long hard journey. You need to know when to have a break and to try your hardest not to let it rule your life . but in the end even though I didn’t conceive on ivf . I’m glad I gave it my all.

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Posted by jodie80, 24th June 2013