Is there such a notion as being too happy? Today I’ve realised that I’m a bit of glass-half-empty kinda gal and I’m trying to figure out why I’ve been feeling so blue…There’s no need really, I’m29 years old and have the most amazing young family. My finances are in order and there is peace and respect in my house. So what’s the problem? yes, that’s exactly what I keep asking myself and this is the only answer I can come up with:
I’m scared. Not just a little scared, but SHIT SCARED. Scared that my perfect little bubble that I’m working for in my life is going to pop and things will never be the same. It makes it hard to enjoy the now when I’m scared about what the future may bring and I know I must learn to let go but I ask you – how? How do I let go when danger lurks in every corner and the most precious people in my life might be at risk. Loving your family whole-heartedly surely can be a double-edged sword if they are taken away from you, I don’t think I could live with the pain that would bring.
So you see, this is why I have concluded that I must be an empty-glass gal. I’m wondering when shit will hit the fan all the time – it’s bound to, that’s life I guess. Am I preparing or simply paranoid, I’ll let you be the judge of this one.
Posted by priss16, 4th March 2014