I dont think I can take it much more, its not an abusive relationship, but it most certainly is a testing one. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety and its common for me IF out in public, to have a panic attack, which generally means, I cannot leave the house, without my heart pounding.
yet the relationship I am in is toxic, but he is the only one I can rely on. I have NO family, would not even have a clue how to contact my extended family, I have been the black sheep with my mental illness that my faimly, well… lets just say, to them.. I never existed.
I want to leave, and I want to try and just live alone, but I just cant… I cant walk out that door to try and find the help I need
Posted anonymously, 20th May 2014