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I dont think I can take it much more, its not an abusive relationship, but it most certainly is a testing one. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety and its common for me IF out in public, to have a panic attack, which generally means, I cannot leave the house, without my heart pounding.

yet the relationship I am in is toxic, but he is the only one I can rely on. I have NO family, would not even have a clue how to contact my extended family, I have been the black sheep with my mental illness that my faimly, well… lets just say, to them.. I never existed.

I want to leave, and I want to try and just live alone, but I just cant… I cant walk out that door to try and find the help I need


Posted anonymously, 20th May 2014


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  • There are support services in Australia to help you with this. Call you local council and ask them. Or you could try local charities such as the Salvos. You CAN do it!

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  • I think you need to seek the help you need. Hopefully then you could build up your strength to leave if it is right for you.
    You need support not added stress.

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  • For you to take the big step, you will need to get your mental illness assessed again.
    If the relationship is truly toxic, you need to get out of there as it’ll only make matters worse.

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  • nice story for read

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  • Do you have a good GP? They should be able to guide you to get some help, whether counselling or psychological. There is help for you, you are not alone, just need to find some support. Get help as soon as you can so you can make the right decisions and move on if you feel that is best for you. I wish you well.

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  • I wonder if you have Agoraphobia. I had it for quite a while, couldnt leave the house, etc, the path you must take is get help from a doctor to get strong mentally,then you will be able to make the right decision for yourself and be able to stick by it
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    Many sympathies.

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  • It doesn’t sound like you have kids, so leaving would be easier and it sounds like you need to leave so you can work on getting better and becoming happier!

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  • It sounds like you have already made the decision to leave your partner, i think you really should go and get some professional help there are so many people out there that can help you and put you in the right direction.
    Good luck in the decision you make.

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  • Sounds like you already know you have to leave, normally the right thing to do is the hardest path. There a mentor programs were people are like big sister’s or big brother’s to people with mental health issues. Mental health is such a taboo subject, people really need to be more open to these conditions. Good luck and hopefully you will have good day soon and start taking the steps to move on, cause it doesn’t sound like your relationship is a place were you can grow as a person.

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  • I feel so sorry for you and what you are going through. Try contacting some one like life line and see if they can or put you onto some one that can help you

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  • I send you love and best wishes, try and get in contact with a welfare agency, they may be able to come to you and see what assistance they can offer

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  • The phone is your friend & you need to speak to a professional regarding your situation.Try Beyond Blue, Lifeline or even the Mental Health Line in your state.

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  • I am so sorry. Can you make contact with a community group – maybe find a counsellor and get involved with some social activities to start increasing your confidence and social network? I know it won’t be easy.

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  • You can contact lifeline on 13 11 14, they will be able to listen to anything you want to say and give you advice, support and assistance in whatever decision you make. I hope everything works out well for you xx

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  • Try and contact a women’s service organisation. They are fantastic with all manner of advice you may need to help you through this

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