I have found myself in a situation of wanting a baby. Maybe I should start with telling how I found myself in this position. I had very strict parents so I got married at 19 to the first boy that asked me. By the time I was 21 I was pregnant with my first child. Four years later came my second. The day that they were going to take her my mom came to the hospital and asked me to tie my tubes. She said your marriage isn’t stable don’t have another. The truth of the matter was she knew more than I have her credit for. Two years into the marriage he came abusive. He didn’t stop there he was cheating all the time. So done what she asked. When I came home I cried for two weeks, wishing I hadn’t done it. But knowing she was right. I made it with until a few months before our ten years together. My oldest daughter got to were she was eight now and wouldn’t go to school afraid of what daddy would do to mommy while she was gone. She looked at me and said I will never marry a man like daddy. That day I realized what am I doing to my children. What am I teaching my daughters. Yes I got my divorce. Now I have met a wonderful man. My daughters are now 18 and 15. I have a wonderful man in my life and I am going to be turning forty. I want more than anything to give this man who has never been married and has no children a child. I want my tubes untied but it’s so expensive. I have written every talk so and everyone I know trying to enter contest to win. Trying to find anyone to help point me in the right direction. Hoping for my miracle. I don’t know if a forty year old can have a baby but I want to do this so bad. I want to prove that a used women can have that happy ever after. That they don’t have to give up on life or their dreams.
Posted anonymously, 19th February 2016