Mum opens up about her battle with perinatal anxiety.
Mel Watts, mum-of-four, from the Central Coast in NSW, penned a candid post about the condition which she developed after the birth of her youngest child, Sonny, shares Daily Mail.
Mel, also known as The Modern Mumma, explained that a year and a half ago she was desperately Googling her extensive list of symptoms as tears ‘streamed’ down her face.
‘My heart was racing, I was shaking and I felt scared. I had been feeling like this for months and every time I went to get help I was told it was IBS or a stomach infection,’ she wrote.
‘I remember once I left my children at the checkout in the trolley with the workers so I could go to the bathroom,’ she said.
‘I wouldn’t go the gym, I wouldn’t go to friends houses, I wouldn’t even think about going out for the night or a party. I’d rather sit at home – it was easier.’
‘I started hiding the feelings I was having. I would go into the bathroom and cry, I would sit on the toilet and sob whilst saying to him it must have been something I ate.’
‘The only way I could venture outside my four walls was with a packet of gastro stop and two anti nausea tablets in my stomach,’ Mel said.
‘I could function then, just. But enough to get the children to school and go and get bread and milk.’
Mel was isolating herself from the people around her but after a while, decided to visit a psychologist.
‘I walked into that room a year ago broken, lost, scared and miserable. I cried the whole session,’ she said.
‘He listened to me and finally he gave me the answer I have been searching for.’
It was this psychologist who told her that although she had had her baby months earlier, she was suffering perinatal anxiety.
She reiterated that it’s okay to not be okay and said she urged others to seek professional help when they need it.
The post has received an outpouring of support and ‘thank yous’ from mothers who have been, or are, in similar situations.
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