Sunday just gone was my first Mother’s Day. It was such a mixture of emotions for me. I was elated that I am finally a mum, I was in awe of the love shown to me from my little girl, I was proud that I had helped her learn what she knows, I was excited that this is the first of many mothers days I will get to enjoy each year from now, but I was saddened that my own mum couldn’t be here to see me as a mum.
I sent Sunday trying to be about my family, my gorgeous little girl and that fact that it was the first time I get to be pampered on Mother’s Day. I didn’t go out to the cemetery on Mother’s Day as I knew I would be upset, and I know it sounds selfish, but I wanted to be happy for my day.
I took my 9 moth old little girl out to the cemetery on Monday, and whilst I was nervous, I shouldn’t have been. We were there for three hours and my little girl was so happy the whole time. It was like her nanny was comforting her. I took some photos and was so happy with the result. My little girl was so calm, and so happy to be with her nan for Mother’s Day it was beautiful. Next year I will be stronger, as each day I marvel at how my daughter grows, and how lucky I am to be a mum.
Posted by melissamckanna, 18th May 2013