i was so excited to discover that i was pregnant with my 2nd child. i researched all the do’s and don’ts, took the vitamins and fell in love with a beautiful person that i was yet to meet. Every thing was going fine and i felt good until one morning when i woke up and went to the toilet and there was blood. What was happening? i was 13 weeks pregnant and i’m in the safe zone now.
Well my partner took the day off work and we rushed to the hospital where i got blood tests and got sent for an ultrasound. The technician is giving me hope saying that baby looks good and then says that baby is measuring at 10 weeks and then says that he is sorry but the baby’s heart is not beating. MY BABY’S HEART IS NOT BEATING.
i feel numb and sick and i want to run and leave because this is obviously a mistake. It’s a blur of feelings and i say thankyou and start to leave as i hear him say i’m sorry. Back at the hospital my doctor is waiting with a nurse and explains that my baby has stopped growing at 10 weeks and my body is starting to shed it. YOU MEAN MY CHILD. i go through the motions as he talks about grief counselling and tells me not to blame myself because it was not my fault. NO I DON’T CARE BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO GO HOME AND SAY GOODBYE. The next day i saw my child and said hi and bye. My partner and i buried the baby and i have never seen my hubby look so sad. A few months later we got pregnant again and she is now a beautiful and happy child
Posted by mom94125, 4th October 2014