When I was still oblivious of my faith before, I usually wonder why things happen. I don’t only wonder but I question it. I get frustrated. I get tired I get confused It felt like it was my job to know those things and if I don’t know a reason for such, I become more agitated. It is part of my personality to look forward, plan and see things so I can direct, divulge, dodge or make things happen. It was an uptight moment of my life and at the same time very loose and ill-fitting. When I can’t figure out such things, I try to figure out why I can’t figure it out. Am I getting paranoid? Am I getting stupid? Am I not using my analytical mind efficiently?
One of the first things God taught me when I opened my life for Him is to trust Him. That was the most basic yet one of the most important lessons I am to carry my whole Christian life. If I wanted to share Christ to people or if I wanted them to believe the power of Christ, I have to demonstrate a total trust of being to the One who knows it all. Trusting God is not an option in faith. It is not a side dish or something we throw here and there. Trusting Him is a COMMAND.
John 14:1 (New International Version)
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me.”
When I took a step away from the world, I was asked to make a leap of faith. God wanted me to trust Him. In that experience, I had to have my eyes blind folded. I had to stare on a very blank page of my life. I had to go back to nothing because all my baggage, all my excesses, all my hurts and pains and anger and grievances have no room for the life He is to give me.
He gave me instructions I didn’t understand and if I looked in my human eyes, it would plainly be gibberish, unimportant, difficult AND impossible. But again if I wanted to pass to my God’s standards, if truly I say in my heart that I love Him and I will follow Him, I knew I had to trust His Words.
And so I did. Most of the time, I didn’t quite know where He is getting at or why He is making me do this. I mean, He is an all powerful, all amazing, all bolts and lightning God. If He wanted this for my life – a career, a ministry, my desires, He could zap it all in front of me and be done with it. It would have been easier not only for my side but for His part as well. But again, that is not what God is all about. He didn’t want to give all of those things right away to gain my trust. He didn’t only want my trust but my obedience as well.
Ephesians 6:6 (New International Version)
Obey them not only to win their favor when their eye is on you, but as slaves of Christ, doing the will of God from your heart.
We are asked to trust and obey Him for Him to be able to paint His masterpiece – our individual lives formed, shaped and molded according to His goodness. When we begin our journey with Christ, the canvas would seem blank and just plainly white. As we move towards His will, He reveals to us colors and shapes, a splash right then and there, a brush stroke on the sides. We may even compare it to a puzzle as each puzzle pieces fit perfectly. We may not understand completely why such a jagged edged crooked piece would do to our lives but as God unfolds His will to us, as we trust Him more, we realize that, that jagged painful piece was needed to fit perfectly a piece we have been waiting for.
This is what the LORD says:
“Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who draws strength from mere flesh and whose heart turns away from the LORD. That person will be like a bush in the wastelands; they will not see prosperity when it comes. They will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives.
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”
Trust, in this world of ours, is difficult where friends betray friends and brothers give up brothers. But let us be reminded that our fellowmen, friends, families are imperfect like ourselves. All of us at some point have been betrayed. We get paranoid living in this world. Who on earth can we tell those secrets? Who on earth can understand us? In the end, we are left with the obvious that only the Perfect One can truly be trusted. And over the stories told in the Bible, God has failed no one – from God commanding Noah to build an ark during summer and him and his family being the only ones saved across the world, from God commanding Abraham to offer Isaac and he obeyed yet through this God still blessed Him with children ‘countless like the stars’, from God commanding Moses to ‘set His people free’ and Moses witnessing from His own eyes the power and might of God, from Joshua trusting God that they can conquer the walls and the cities to which God has delivered in their hands, from David trusting God that he could defeat a giant until He was made king and many more stories of just plainly trusting God.
I am asked to trust and obey God even if others think what He’s asking me is crazy. In the end, I am the one crazy if we don’t trust and follow Him.
Posted by Madeline De Leon, 14th September 2014