Needed to vent and be angry but not in front of my 6 year old. I lost my Dad to cancer when I was six years old. Lost my best friend at 11 years old to leukemia. Lost my paternal Grandmother to breast cancer when I was 19 years old. Lost my maternal Grandmother to secondary liver cancer when I was 22 years old. Lost my Aunt to leukemia when I was 23 years old. Lost a wonderful and beautiful friend to leukemia July 2007. A beautiful and close family friend was diagnosed with breast cancer, beat it once and then it returned and she chose to have a double mastectomy to reduce the risk of it returning. So far so good.
I then found happiness, contentment and gained a beautiful daughter with my partner for close on 10 years, right up until he lost his battle with secondary liver cancer in May 2011. My daughter was 4 when she lost her Daddy and both hers and my hearts broke.
Then last night, I found out my mum has been diagnosed with breast cancer. She hasn’t been well to begin with, as a few years ago she had a stroke. She also has diabetes. She and I never really got along and there are some things that she says and does that I don’t agree with. Her parenting skills left a lot to be desired when I was growing, which is why her 4 children rarely see her and when we do, it is time limited to reduce the chance of disagreements or arguments. In saying that, she is very good grandmother. Isn’t that always the way?
Anyway, she is my mum, my daughters’ Grandmother and cancer sucks big time. I wouldn’t wish it on anybody, as it affects not only the patient, but the entire family and support network.
So, yeah, I am really, really hating cancer at the moment. Thank you for allowing me to vent. I love that Mouths of Mums allows us space to write and share our stories, whether they be heartbreaking or celebratory. Thank you MoM!
Posted by chezj, 3rd July 2013