Since having a daughter I’ve realized how much I have to change how I think about myself. I knew that having a child would change how I felt about my body but I never thought it would be like this.
The other day my daughter reached to grab my feet, which I’ve always hated because they’re big and because I run and have a tendency to walk around barefoot they’re dirty, tough with callouses and generally unattractive in my eyes. I immediately said ‘No don’t, they’re dirty and gross’, she looked at my feet then looked down at her own and I could see she was trying to process what I had said.
That is when I realised I had to change my attitude. I want to raise a daughter who is proud and confident no matter how her body turns out, and the best way to ensure that is to provide her with a good example. I have to stop putting down my features that I don’t like in myself otherwise she’ll begin looking for flaws in herself.
Since that day I’ve started consciously thinking about what I say to her because I know that at 2 she is trying to put everything, including herself, into place in the world and I need to make it my goal to ensure she goes to the right place. Now when she looks at different parts of my body I explain them to her instead of brushing it off. It’s amazing how just changing what I say out loud to her changes how I feel inside about myself.
Speaking in a more affirmative manner about myself puts me in a positive frame of mind and makes me want to achieve more. Since then I’ve started running, ok slowly jogging, again and I’m going to join a yoga class. I’ve also started eating more salad and less dessert, only slightly less but still. All of this is because I want to be the best person I can be for this tiny human who looks up to me as the knowledge of her universe and it’s changing all of our lives.
Posted by sarahsampsonite, 29th October 2015