First of all, thanks for this section on your site. I love reading stories from other mums because it’s good to hear that others are in the same boat as me. I don’t really have a scary birth story or any near death experiences but to be honest, I sometimes worry there is something wrong with me.
The bottom line is that sometimes I really struggle to find one thing enjoyable about being a wife and mother. I didn’t really used to be like this when my kids were small but it seems the older they get, the busier I get and I find I lose my temper easily and completely lost the plot! I always thought as the kids got older, it would be easier – they would help out around the house, we’d sit and chat and I’d start getting more sleep.
The trouble is that when the kids started getting older, I started thinking I could fit more in so I got a part-time job (which is actually more than part time). Of course I wanted to make sure my kids didn’t miss out so now I spend my life juggling, stressing and running from one thing to the next.
Some days I just wish for the days when I could sit on the couch and watch TV. Hell, some days I just wish all I had to do was the ironing. And some days I long for those long afternoons between the lunchtime nap and night time bedtime where I actually wondered how we would fill in the time!
I don’t think I’m a pioneer – most of my friends seem to be busy too. I just think they cope with it better than me. Maybe they don’t really but I feel like they all do. I don’t think I’ve shouted so much in my life than I do now. So I think I’m at the point where I need to ask for help. Although so much of me feels as though that will make me a ‘failure’. I guess I need to move beyond trying to manage this myself and actually find someone who understands. I guess I’m worried they’ll whack me on drugs and I’ll become some loony lady who picks up the kids in her pjs …
OK I’m going to do it. A happy mum is a good mum right? I’ll report back soon and let you know how it’s all going. Thanks for just listening (sometimes it’s good to know someone is listening/reading without judging).
Posted by NicNacNoo, 20th February 2013