Coming up soon is the 4 year mark my life changed forever.
Life was normal as a 21 almost 22 year old. Parties, drinking, TAFE, random treks across the state, chilling with my boyfriend.
One day a friend turns to me and asks if i’m OK. Shocked as I could see no reason for her to ask me I reply ‘yeah, why wouldn’t I be?’ She goes on to tell me she thinks I look bloated and a little tired. Well yeah I was at TAFE, partying, hardly eating and due for my period.
She still kinda iffy as her dad had just passed from a liver condition where his stomach swelled massivly. She books me into the DR, now she did it as I never would have. I have a serious phobia of all things medical, needles are the big evil.
I begrudgingly go, ok she drags me there lol.
I jump on the bed and the DR starts asking me if i’ve had any pain or tightness, vomiting and so on. I say no to all of them, she feels my stomach then gets this little machine and scans my belly.
I’ve heard a heartbeat before like that with a friend during her pregnancy and thought to myself ‘nah you messing with your head’
She turns to me and says well your not sick, your pregnant!
Now i’m the girl who was happy to be aunty but never have my own.
Cue me, stunned silence, didn’t move, thought it was some hallucination, thinking of ALL the things I had done in that time. Show rides that go over 100km hr flinging me left right and all around complete with signs saying not safe if pregnant, the drinking, OMG the drinking, I was a fish, I rarely ate.
15 minutes pass and “I say I cant be” ” i’ve had no morning sickness, the one time I was sick several people from my TAFE also got sick, we all ate at same place, no sore breasts, didn’t lose my period. Not one pregnancy symptom”
She then says she thinks i’m about 5 months along. All I can muster is “im a size 6 shouldnt I be showing or something?’
Apparently not necessarily. Well duh I get that now lol
Go for my first ultrasound, I get dated at 7 months and only have roughly 13 weeks to go.
Jaw + floor + me.
13 weeks later I had a healthy, full term little girl who is now 3 and a half.
I figured I’d share my story because I always get ‘how could you not know’ with that look of almost disgust on their face or ‘but your not fat, couldn’t you tell’ with a patronizing tone. Its not as black and white as some wish to believe and to show anyone else who may be in a similar situation that your not alone, It can work out and you will be ok. Its hard and scary but you do come out the other side
Posted by squeekums, 10th July 2013