I love my family, lets start there.
They make me laugh till my post baby bladder needs to burst. They make me stop and look at things that I would normally stroll right by. But boy oh boy do they test me in between.
My loving, caring, very hard working ‘Mr’ is what most ladies dream of. He cooks, he cleans, he shops, he cares for the kids. He runs the family finacials as well as the businesses and works in it too. Nice old catch hey! (hands off hes mine) But sometimes it is really hard to appreciate all this, sometimes I really need to pinch myself and remember all of these good things, because my ‘Mr’ also has Tourettes. Now without going into all the medical mumbo jumbo, in a nut shell, it causes him to do/say things that he cant filter first. It just comes out, it just happens and you deal with it after.
This ‘quality’ as I like to call it, is a lot of the time refreshing! Because you can clearly see how he is feeling, unlike many men who hide emotions, my ‘Mr’ lets it all hang out…. so to speak! But as you can imagine with two youngsters around as they grow it is becoming interesting. Now ‘Mr’ does hide his actions a lot, I know he does because when his stress levels sky rocket his ability to hide his actions fails and the true extent of his T shines through. This in turn stresses him out more and so the cycle continues.
Our life consists of us, our two children, three dogs, 9 birds and a business. We run the business 6 days a week and its just me and him. We are there from 8 am to 6 pm and it is on the other side of town so its 5.30 wake ups and dinner doesnt hit the plate till at least 8 pm. Its crazy, its exhausting but its us.
I would not give him up for the world. I would not change him for the world. I would not change our lifestyle for the world. But sometimes I will admit I do want to hide under the covers. Everyday I think, no more. I want to give up, I just want to work 9 to 5 and lead a normal life. Then we get going, the kids head off to care or come with us to the shop, the first customer rolls up, they know us, we know them, they are like family… its all ok again.
Im lucky. So many people do not have the luxury of having their ‘Mr’ by their side. So many do not have the luxury of having their gorgeous children by their side. So many trudge off to their job’s not really enjoying it, just waiting for pay day. Im lucky.
My life is filled with Toddlers and Tourettes …… It’s never dull and I love it.
Appreciate what you have. xxx
Posted anonymously, 5th June 2014