It sounds stupid, I know, most people would read that and think “Well yeah, family is what makes you strong” but it’s different for me, I have always been very independent and very separate from a lot of the drama that goes on in my family.
Anyway, I met my husband on-line and we were a match made in heaven, if only he was about a gazillion miles closer. He lived in Scotland! How much further away from Perth could you get? But we made it work and we ended up with me giving up my job and friends and head over there to live with him and his family.
It was great at first, his family were not as welcoming as I would have liked, but they tolerated me and we soon got into a fairly easy stride. With a few bumps on the way, it got easier after we got married and then when I got pregnant. It got easier for them, but harder on me.
None of my family or friends could make it to my wedding. I was totally alone. My amazing husband did organise a skype call from my father and his family which was wonderful, but that was it. I dealt, of course, I am made of stronger stuff than that and I was handling my depression a lot better than I had before. Or so I thought…
The worst of it came when I was about 4 months pregnant. I was dealing really badly, I had several things wrong with the pregnancy and my depression hit an all time low. I was alone and isolated as my husband was away for work. I got a phone call and was told that we had a high chance of our baby having Down Syndrome.
It was my breaking point.
I sobbed my heart out and phoned everyone I could in Scotland, no one was available and I was so alone I was on the verge of suicide. It was then that I picked up the phone and called the one person I did not expect to help, my grandmother. She talked me down and explained her own experiences with birth and labour, we had never been close, but she was there for me as much as she could be. She made sure to stay on the phone with me until I assured her I was fine and waited while I went to sleep.
It was amazing to have her right there for me just when I needed someone the most.
I guess the point of me sharing this is to say, always keep your family in your heart. You may not be close with them, but they are always going to be there for you.
Posted by madgeekgal, 12th September 2013