Mum of three shares why she will always carry her son.

I carry him.

I know it looks silly, his toes dangle past my knees. He’s getting tall and heavy, too. It sometimes hurts my back to lift his frame, but, I carry him.

It starts in the morning when waking up is hard. I should make him walk down the stairs, as it’s still something he is working on in physical therapy. But with his sleepy eyes and tired heart, he doesn’t want to start off his day with a task.

So, I carry him.

He works hard to get off the school bus. One hand on the rail and down three large steps with care. He takes my hand and can’t wait to go inside to play. But I make him go to the bathroom first. He doesn’t want to pause. I kneel down, give him a hug, and a reassuring word.

Then, I carry him.

At the end of the day, when we’ve worked on manners at the table and holding his utensils with the correct grasp, sometimes he is so done. And there is still the bathing, teeth brushing, and getting dressed to do. From the table and up the stairs we go.

Sometimes, I carry him.

The world moves fast and demands so much from all of us. I imagine with my son’s age and disability, it is often more exhausting. He’s directed and redirected, pushed and pulled throughout the day. There are times when he’s had enough. That’s when I carry his awkwardly long body against my own short one. Because sometimes, we all need someone to carry us to get us through the next hard thing, to love us through our good, bad, and weak moments.

When he’s reached his limit, I’m close to my own. But when I carry him, he somehow carries me, too.

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  • So beautifuly written.
    And do you know what, let her do it become I can guarantee you, she will have no regrets and go to bed happy every night know she was there for her son.

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  • Very few people have any understanding how difficult it can be caring for a disabled child. By the time they reach school age, children are heavy to carry and it will get harder as he gets bigger. At some time in the future you may need physio to help to strengthen your back for you to be able to help your son. I wish you and your family all the best in your endeavours in life.

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  • Yes, sometimes a child just needs you to understand they’re done.

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  • Beautiful, our babies grow so fast we should treasure every moment

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  • I carried my youngest until I couldn’t physically do it anymore. Not everywhere though, just when she was really exhausted. Enjoy it while you can I say.

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  • If it works for her I couldn’t do it there is a difference between providing cuddles and love and encouraging Independence

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  • Yes beautiful ! When my 5yr old wants to be carried and needs that comfort, cuddle or protection and carry her too.

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  • Absolutely beautiful words, this touched my heart.

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