Mum shares how due to severe morning sickness she felt she had no choice but to have an abortion.

LAUREN Fox was just 21 the first time she got pregnant. A sickness bug meant the contraceptive pill she’d been taking had failed, shares The Sun.

Lauren, now 34, said: “I was in shock about the pregnancy. Then, four days after I found out, I was suddenly sick on the bedroom floor.”

Next morning, simply rolling over in bed made her sick again. “I was throwing up continuously,” she recalled. “By the first week of sickness it was happening 15 times a day.”

Along with nausea and vomiting, Lauren suffered from debilitating dizziness. Blood tests revealed that her hormone levels were double that of a usual pregnancy.

Two days on she was admitted to hospital and put on IV fluids. “I couldn’t think straight,” she admitted. “The lights, noise and smells there made me feel really rough. I was crying a lot and I’m not a crier. I discharged myself after six hours.”

Unable to eat or get out of bed, she had to give up her job at an interiors shop.

At the time, she’d never heard of hyperemesis gravidarum (HG), which is the same extreme morning sickness Duchess Kate Middleton suffered from and actress Amy Schumer revealed she was also suffering.

“My mind was racing,” she recalled. “Was this going to last for the full nine months? What will I do with the baby at the end? I felt like I was dying and I just wanted it to end.”

Lauren made an appointment with BPAS, the British Pregnancy Advisory Service.

“It’s awful but I felt like there was no option,” Lauren said. “I went in with my sick bowl and didn’t look at anyone.”

Lauren was 10 weeks pregnant when she was given a tablet to swallow, then three further tablets to take by putting them on a tampon to terminate the pregnancy.

“At first the relief outweighed the remorse,” she admitted.

“When I started to feel guilty I’d brush it under the carpet but occasionally I’d lie in bed and it would come to me.

“I didn’t want to open the floodgates so I locked it away. I didn’t think I could live with the guilt.”

Lauren has since welcomed a daughter and said NEVER again!

Lauren lost 2st 7lb during this time. The long, dark hair around her temples fell out in clumps and she couldn’t get out of bed, let alone wash or brush her teeth.

“I thought about not going through with it,” she admitted. “But there was no way I was going to do that again.”

At 18 weeks Lauren started to improve. She was still nauseous and sick every day, but could nibble on almonds and tinned mandarins.

Finally, at 27 weeks, the sickness stopped. Her healthy daughter, Rebecca, was born at 39 weeks weighing 6lb 11oz, with a mop of dark hair.

While she was elated to have finally become a mum, looking at her perfect baby meant the reality of her termination years before painfully hit home.

“My daughter is everything to me but I never want to feel that way again. Ever.

“The way I cope is to just not think about it. I’ll never be the same again.”

Share your comments below

  • She has to do what is right for her circumstances but goodness she has been through a lot.


  • Aw bless, so hard !
    My friend had severe HG and was hospitalized for half of her pregnancy. After that she said never to get pregnant again. She became 2 more times pregnant and again suffered severe HG, but blessed with 3 beautiful children.


  • She made the best decision she could at the time. That’s all you can really do.


  • I had HG. It was so debilitating. I never contemplating terminating but completely understand those who do. I lost so much weight and could barely do anything. I got told how lucky I was that I was so small. It was really awful and people are so insensitive. Mine didn’t stop until the end of the pregnancy and I was always so worried about something happening to the baby.


  • My Mum lost consciousness on 2 occasions and almost miscarried on both occasions when she was about 7 months pregnant. She vomitted for almost of her 2nd pregnancy. Often at night. It got to the stage my Dad had a bowl his side of the bed for her to use when she woke up as he could her stomach making noises before she vomitted. A special diet didn’t help.


  • I dislike stories about abortion.


  • Poor love. I know how debilitating it can be. She was so young too. At least she now has a beautiful little girl to love.


  • I’m so sorry for what you went through. It’s difficult to cope with some of the decisions we make but you now have a beautiful daughter so you need to focus on that alone. I think you are very brave to open up about this.


  • That’s terrible, that’s not fun at all.


  • Awww, you poor love. I totally understand. I spent 4 years trying to get pregnant, by IVF eventually, and I was wracked with anxiety and guilt. I had HG and I was just so petrified of not getting to term. It is not a pleasant way to ‘endure’ pregnancy, and you feel robbed of the beauty of what you’ve created.


  • Have not had HG but been there with very bad morning or I called all day sickness. It does not help many medical people do not understand what I was going though. So yes it did feel like death was better at times. Hope others find the help they needed


  • I’ve had HG twice both pregnancy’s it started around 5 weeks but in my second we knew which meds worked and thankfully the effect was lessened downside is once you have it you will get it again each subsequent pregnancy
    I lost 27 kgs with my 1st and 15kgs with my second only because we were able to get the right system in place


  • What an awful experience! Id heard of this condition but to hear the details of what it was like I honestly can’t blame her! I’m glad she got her baby and got to experience some of her pregnancy without feeling sick all the time.


  • I feel so sorry for this lady!! If only she had a good doctor that could help treat her symptoms.


  • Terrible article. So did she or didn’t she. Whee’d the child come from – did she have one already or one since?


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