I see so many stories where stay at home mums feel belittled and like people look down on them for embracing a mothers role and staying at home. Let me tell you – I work full time and I’m a single mother and I’m envious of stay at home mums- I so want to be you. I’m not sure what is wrong with me except for a couple of years ago I was diagnosed with arthritis and slightly bulging discs like half of the population. Now it seems to have gone to my hips and my legs and in fact my whole body aches. I feel like the tin man. My feet are getting oedema like when I was pregnant. I have nobody around to help in the state. I do know there are others much, much worse off and I thank my blessings everyday I wake up. I’m not sure what’s going on with my body. I simply don’t really have time to go to the dr for myself and then go for the gazillions of tests it would take to find out and perhaps it’s nothing. The thought has crossed my mind that I may actually be suffering from exhaustion as well. Has anybody else suffered from exhaustion and what did they experience? Also has anybody who was a separated parent ever given up their full time job in favour of staying at home and what do government benefits pay? My child is now 8, so no single parent benefits for me. I’ve worked all my life and worked hard with a die hard work ethic since I was very young and now I’ve had enough. My bones ache, my mind aches, I’m alone and I want to be out of physical pain and mental weariness. Never felt like this before. Not sure what’s keeping me going.
Posted anonymously, 15th September 2014