When mum needed to transport her 4-year-old daughter’s ashes from the funeral home, she put them in the only logical place she could think of: the little girl’s car seat. “Buckling you in felt normal.”
Little Ellie Walton, four, died in January from a rare brain tumor. She endured 17 surgeries, 14 of them brain surgeries, in her short life.
Sarah Walton “wasn’t sure” why she photographed the temporary urn in the car seat, but she’s received such an outpouring of support since she posted it on the Facebook page Prayers for Ellie Walton that she hopes it’s raising awareness about paediatric cancer.
Sarah told ABC News that she never wants another mother to go through this.
Posting about Ellie helps her cope with her daughter’s loss. “I love to talk about her and have people remember her. I love to hear about her and I love to talk about her.”
The heartbreaking tribute on Facebook reads,
“You should be here.
We made you a custom urn, you would love it baby girl. Unfortunately temporary urns are just boxes, that wasn’t good enough for you, so I decorated it, until your perfect urn comes in.
Driving you home the other day, I was scared, but buckling you in felt normal. Even though None of this is normal, none of this is right. You should be here. Death is so selfish baby girl. My heart is broken. I’m Literally hurting and torn, I know your in a better place, and yet no place is better than in my arms. I know your happy and pain free, and yet I want you here. It’s been two months since I last kissed your cheek or played with your hair. It’s been two months of pure torture, agony, and despair. All I want back is our daily life, whatever they entailed, I want it back. I want hospital visits back, and chemo back, I want your laughter, and your joyous heart back. The things that brought my heart so much pain, only a few months ago, I so desperately want back today.
Life’s not fair baby girl, you know that better than anyone. I do know that your life brought me so much joy, and looking back, I’m thankful that I made sure to tell you every single day just how much I loved you. I will forever be grateful to have been your mommy.
Baby girl I don’t want you watching over me thinking that your passing only causes me pain. You see baby girl, I would gladly take this pain over and over again, if it meant that I got to be your momma. Cause had I never known you, I would have never known pure happiness, I would have never known to live every moment as your last, and I would have never known what true bravery, strength, and courage looked like. This will change baby girl, I will make it change. I never want another mom to feel this way, and I will fight for these other kids so that no other mom has to buckle in ashes of their babies. Because you have always been worth #morethan4″
Our thoughts are with Ellie’s family.
In 2016, it was estimated that 650 children aged 0-14 years will be newly diagnosed with cancer in Australia (365 boys and 285 girls).
The number of new diagnoses is estimated to be higher in the 0–4 year age group (315 children) than in 5–9 year olds (160 children) and 10–14 year olds (175 children).
Last month we shared a heartbreaking photo that touched the hearts of thousands after mum shared an image of her sons daily battle “Life isn’t pretty, and cancer destroys a person.” Read that article here.
Last year we also shared a story of dad who posted a photo of his daughter to make people aware of the darkness that is childhood cancer. Read that article here.
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