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Have you had a moment when your whole world falls apart and you question whether you should be allowed to be a mum? How do you go dealing with your worst moments as a mother?

A friend of mine knocked on my door this morning distraught and in tears. She had gone into work and had a niggling feeling she had forgotten something. Then as manager, she was told someone had left a baby in their car. She was astounded that this had happened and wondered how someone could do such a thing. She went down to the car park and as she neared the car she realised…it was her car. She had left her baby in the car and it had been 20 minutes.

Fortunately, the baby was safe and well.

Now, we could be quick to judge here. “How could she leave her baby in the car and forget?” “What kind of mother is she…?”

In fact, as she sat with me she kept saying, “I can’t believe I did this” “What kind of mother does this?” “How could I do this?” “I love my baby girl more than anything…”

The reality is she is a wonderful mother. In fact, she is one of the most wonderful mothers I know.

Here’s what happened in the nine days prior: On Wednesday, Thursday and Friday her baby was sick. Despite numerous trips to the doctor, she still could not find out what was wrong. Baby screamed day and night. On Saturday and Sunday the screaming continued so this wonderful mother decided she would go to a different doctor. Although her baby improved a little, she was still worried and stayed close to her all night. By Monday the baby was still unwell so another night of broken sleep went by. On Tuesday the baby was better but her older brother began vomiting. Four bed changes later my friend got through another night. When Wednesday came, she herself began vomiting, the bug lasting through to Thursday.

In between, life was going on…preparing breakfast, lunches, dinner, washing and going to work two different jobs.  Nine days of sleep deprivation had accumulated.

It was now Friday. She reassured herself that if she could make it through today she would be able to catch up on sleep at the weekend. It was that morning that this dreadful incident happened.

How many of us have had an incident happen because of sleep deprivation and exhaustion? When my first child was about 8 weeks old, I stayed at my mum’s place for the weekend and was sleep deprived as is common in this early phase. I gave him a bath: I first washed his tummy and then turned him over to wash his back. I did not realise that I had submerged his head in the water and almost drowned him. As I turned him over, I realised what had happened and screamed to my parents for help. Fortunately he was fine. I went into shock at how I could allow such a thing to happen. I questioned my ability to be a mum that day.

Many of these situations work out well and no-one is really harmed, so what can we do to help ourselves pick up the pieces and move forward in a positive, healthy way?

1. Ask for help – Go to someone who can help you get some sleep and rest – your partner, a friend, a neighbour or get some paid help.  Get yourself out of the danger zone.1

2. Catastrophising – This is where your mind keeps going to what could have happened, the worst that could have happened.  “What if he had drowned? What if it had been a hot day? What if…”This is a cognitive distortion of the reality of the event. Becoming aware that you are doing this and then saying to yourself “drop it” will be vital for completing Step 3.

3. Accepting what happened – You don’t like that it happened, you didn’t want it to happen but it is as it is.

4. Gather the learnings – Ask yourself, “What can I learn from this incident?” What indicators do I need to listen and watch for in myself to prevent this from happening again? What behaviours or responsibilities do I need to change to ensure I get adequate rest?

5. Forgiveness of self –This is the part that is often forgotten and usually the most difficult to do, yet it is the most vital piece to help us move forward as a stronger mum. We are usually our own toughest critics. Imagine what you may say to your best friend in this situation.  What words of love and support might you offer? “You are a wonderful mother” “This one incident doesn’t define you as mum.” Now offer these same words to yourself.

Do you have an experience to share below? A moment where what could have happened didn’t bear thinking about it? Are you able to apply the process above? If you find there are parts of the process you find difficult, perhaps I can help – pick up the phone and give me a call.

  • This is why I dont’ understand why some people are so brutal when the worst happens. Many people have close calls and it’s not necessarily because of bad parenting.

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  • There are more then one worst moment as a mum for me. Just when I thought I couldn’t get any worse, I diD

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  • I still have feelings of guilt when I remember a couple of my lapses as a mum. It’s so bad, but I can’t change it, makes me feel awful to remember

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  • That’s just being a mum isn’t it? You mess up,and you move on, learn from it and move on or you drown in guilt

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  • Really interesting article! Thanks for sharing this!

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  • What a beautiful encouraging article for our worst moments. I really liked you 5 tips, really practical but essential in overcoming mistakes. I’m usually not so good at the acceptance…

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  • Oh my god, that poor mother.
    She must have felt so bad.
    Lucky it ended well.
    She would have been better off taking a sick day.

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  • wow and we really should just support each other and not jump on the guilt-tripping band wagon lol

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  • Oh my gosh. Where do I start. I’ve had many breakdowns, since the birth of my daughter. Luckily, I have a great Fiance, who, even though he has no idea what it feels like to meltdown, is there. Sometimes, I would send him a message through the day and say ‘Don’t ask me how my day has been. I’m too emotional.’ He comes through the door and take the kids down to the local park for an hour. Just to give me that bit of time. I have to come to terms that it’s ok to ask for help, it’s ok to say ‘Ok, I don’t have this’, it’s ok for kids to run rampid. If it means you can say the next day ‘New day, new attitude’. When you can’t see the end of the tunnel, talk to someone. Even if they have no idea what it’s like, it’s the fact you’ve spoken out about your problem/s.

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  • forgiveness of self, I love this one. It is the toughest to do but if we can try to do forgive ourselves it makes moving on a much easier process. I also think Asking for help is just as hard for some people. If we know our good friends or family and can see the may need help, put the hand out and offer as they may be to afraid to ask for it.

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  • Love number one ask for help

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  • I think forgiveness in oneself is needed, we often are too harsh on ourselves.

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  • It is comforting to know and accept that we would make mistakes as parents and it would not be the end of the world. Thanks for the encouraging article.

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  • If only we were as kind and forgiving to ourselves as we are to other people. Never be afraid to ask for help, or say you’re sorry, and try not to compare yourself to other people, because there will always be people who do things better or worse or different to you.

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  • I totally love this article. It is such a hard job being a mum!

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