Hello!

7 Comments

One grieving mum shares with us how she survived the death of her baby girl at 20 weeks gestation.

*TRIGGER WARNING – this story may contain disturbing content for some readers

“I became a Christian after the death of my daughter”, shares the mum of two.

“Mummy, is god real?” My 6 year old Son asked me the morning of my 20 week scan. “That is up to you to decide, sweetie” I told him. “If it’s a girl, then I will believe it’s true” he replied.

A few weeks after I told him I was pregnant, my son told me that he had a dream that God told him he was having a sister. He was so excited! He really wanted a sibling.

Throughout my pregnancy he was attentive and spoke about how he would help me with the baby. He often spoke to her and kissed my belly. I was elated to be having another child and relieved that my son was responding well to the pregnancy.


Grieving mum shares her heartbreaking story of infant loss


 

Unfortunately, my 20 week scan did not go as expected. The sonographer found abnormalities in our baby’s brain which they referred to as Dandy Walker Syndrome. After having this confirmed by another doctor at Nepean Hospital, we were told that it was best to terminate the pregnancy because the chances of survival for our baby were very slim. Her brain was measuring 17 weeks at 20 weeks.

My partner and I were devastated and my son was very angry with me. The morning after I gave birth, my son told me that he didn’t “want to see a dead baby”.

Eventually, I convinced him to come to the hospital to see me and the baby, as I believed it was extremely important for him to say goodbye to her and learn that death is a natural part of life.

daniela

My partner and I named her Aura-Rose. We had a blessing ceremony for her done by the hospital Chaplain and an organisation called HeartFelt sent a photographer to take photos of our family of four.

We had four hours in total with our beautiful little girl. When my son first held her he asked “So my baby sister is in heaven now?”. He was in awe of her. He was so lovingly towards her and said “I love my baby sister and think she’s really beautiful”. I was so taken away by his resilience and admiration.

Upon returning home, I was having such a hard time dealing with our loss and said to Cooper “She should be at home with our family”. He replied “She is still a part of a family Mummy, but she’s in God’s family now”. We were not religious by any measurement so I was so surprised that he said this.

Within the same week, I had a perfectly shaped love heart bruise develop where the cannula had been in my arm from the hospital. I strongly believe that this was a sign from Aura that she loves me and to help me move forward.

bruise

I have recently joined the church. I find the atmosphere inspiring and feed off the energy of others during worship. The support we have received is amazing and as cliché as it sounds, I now believe that everything happens for a reason.

Months after Auras passing, the relationship between my partner and I started to fall apart. We were grieving differently and heading in different directions in life.

I decided that I wanted to continue with the church and be a practising Christian and he couldn’t understand why. We still love each other very much, but want different things.

My son’s faith and the sign from Aura inspired me to find my way back to Christianity. In doing this I am learning to find myself again and let go of the things that I cannot change.


MoM’s share what they wish people knew about miscarriage and pregnancy loss


 

If you are struggling with the loss of an infant please know you are not alone. You can find some helpful resources and contacts below.
The Pink Elephants
Bears Of Hope Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support 
Grief Support: 1300 11 HOPE
Email: support@bearsofhope.org.au
PANDA
PANDA National Helpline (Mon to Fri, 9am – 7.30pm AEST) Call 1300 726 306
Sands.org.au
24 hours a day, 365 days a year (including Christmas Day) by dialling 1300 072 637
Lifeline 13 11 14
Our thoughts are with all those families struggling with the recent loss of their tiny little angel.

If you have a story to share please contact the MoM team x

Share your comments below.

  • There are no words to express how deeply sorry I am for your loss. What a wonderful son you have to be able to comfort you at this tragic time for all of you

    Reply

  • People grieve in different ways and often take about 12 months to recover from the first stages but you never forget the person that was lost.

    Reply

  • Thank you for sharing your story.

    Reply

  • We also buried our little angel after giving birth at 28 weeks. He remained with us just for 22 hours. My relationship with my partner grew stronger. I went through a bad patch but he always supported me and I’m very grateful for that. Bless all our little angels who are now with God until we meet them again.

    Reply

  • It can be hard but it’s good to know that there is help out there, I can relate as I have lost my first born daughter and had to bury her and have also had 6 miscarriages.

    Reply

  • Beautiful and inspiring !

    Reply

  • I’m glad the author found something to help her cope.

    Reply

Post a comment
Like Facebook page

LIKE MoM on Facebook

Please enter your comment below
Would you like to include a photo?
No picture uploaded yet.
Please wait to see your image preview here before hitting the submit button.
Your MoM account


Lost your password?

Enter your email and a password below to post your comment and join MoM:

You May Like

Loading…

Looks like this may be blocked by you browser or content filtering.

↥ Back to top

Thanks For Your Star Rating!

Would you like to add a written rating or just a star rating?

Write A Rating Just A Star Rating
Join